Tuesday, October 19, 2010

rock of ages

have you ever paid attention to words while you sing them? at church on sunday, we sang a song that kicked my butt!! i'm not going to go into too many details as far as how, but the kicker was realizing that you sing "your will be done". often i want MY will to be done! not necessarily for bad things, though i'm sure there's selfishness in it, but the things i want to happen and when & how i want them to happen. not for what timing is best or for what will work out for the most good, or even for what will grow me the most/give me experience to share with others.
have you ever thought it hard to let go of something and really trust god with it? i just found it so hard to sing those words and try to come to a place where i really meant it! the beauty of it, is even when it's hard god wants to help! he wants to help us hand things over & he is patient when we get stupid for a moment and take them back. he's a father that wants to hear what's on our hearts and he cries with us when we're sad and smiles with us when we're happy!

lord, i'm struggling to trust your will right now, even though it may be the same as my will! i'm having a hard time letting go in this situation and i pray that you would help me! help me trust you to take care of this! help me trust that you know what's best for me, and for my family! i know you care more about this situation than i do, which is a lot!!! help me to give this to you, even if it means over and over and over again! amen.

Rock of Ages

Rock of Ages, when the day seems long
From this labor and this heartache I have come
The skies will wear out, but You remain the same
Rock of Ages, I praise Your name.

Rock of Ages, You have brought me near
You have poured out Your life-blood, Your love, Your tears
To make this stone heart come alive again
Rock of Ages, forgive my sin

Rock of Ages, Rock of Ages
Bind your children til' your kingdom comes
Rock of Ages, Your will be done

Rock of Ages, when in want or rest
My desperate need for such a Savior I confess
Pull these idols out from my heart embrace
Rock of Ages, I need Your grace

Rock of Ages, broken, scorned for me
Who am I that You would die to make me free?
To give me glory, You took the death and pain
Rock of Ages, my offering

Rock of Ages, "It is done," You cried
The curtain's torn and I see justice satisfied
Now write Your mercy here on my heart and hands
Rock of Ages, in faith I stand

Rock of Ages, my great hope secure
Your promise holds just like an anchor to my soul
Bind your children with cords of love and grace
Rock of Ages, we give You praise

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

wordless wednesdays 10/06

owen got a free ice cream with his dinner...
and even shared with his brother -
now that's love!!!

Monday, October 4, 2010

a lesson about riding trains

this is "the el". we drive past it frequently and o always notices it:
how to know your 3 year old "gets it", but doesn't entirely "get it"...

o: "mom, can we ride the train?"
me: "o, you've really been wanting to ride the train lately, huh? we can't today, but we will try to soon!"
o: "but why not?"
me: forgetting for a second that he shouldn't ask why to his mommy i respond, "we are in the car right now and we can't ride the train when we're in the car. we can't ride the train right now, but i promise we'll try soon!"
o: "but i wanna....."
me: long day with fussy kids = tired momma and i'm ashamed to admit i'm only half listening by now -partly because of trying to drive in pretty nasty weather during rush hour, the other part because i'm exhausted from the days events...a light clicks on in my head and realization of the 'bad choices' going on makes me think must snip this now! in a firm [and not so loving] voice i start my speech, "o, there are 2 problems going on right now. 1. you are whining (in everything you do, do it without whining & complaining), and 2. i said not now and you need to obey and say 'okay mommy' and be done with it (children obey your mommies and daddies for it is good)!" then there was a classic line thrown in the mix. something to the affect of "mommy can make it so you don't go on a train for a very long time!!" after a silent minute & realizing i responded in my tiredness i added a little more tenderly, "you can tell mommy something like 'mommy i really like riding the train, do you think we can go on it again soon?' then mommy will answer. that doesn't mean mommy will say yes...she may say no...she may say later...but you still need to say 'okay mommy' if you like her answer or not!"
o: after a few minute pause this was rapidly thrown out [all together]..."mommy, i really like the train! can we go again? okay mommy!"
i could do nothing but chuckle in response!

Sunday, October 3, 2010

enjoying the beauty of gods creations

watermelon tea

while on vacation, we stopped at a little tea shop called barefoot teas. i had a great watermelon lime chillled tea! i liked it so much that i just had to buy some and bring it home! i have much enjoyed every single glass so far and might even have to buy some limes @ the grocery store this week to try and make my own version of the chilled tea i had there! (though this weather is convincing for hot tea!!) if you're over and like tea, please ask to try some!!!

Saturday, October 2, 2010

hear me [us] roar!

might very well be the funniest thing that happened our whole vacation -a family roaring contest! the camera died so i only got a few short seconds, but you get the idea! also, by this point aiden and i were ruled out of the contest! i LOVE my family!!!