Saturday, August 22, 2009

owen is growing up, and i suppose the following is inevitable, but heart wrenching as well. today we were all in target together, getting some toiletries for the house. we stopped in to the cafe for a drink. at the end joe and owen went to throw some trash away, and i was putting chairs back to the tables from which we took them. i walked up to joe and he said "where is owen?". "he went with you!" i replied. "yea, but he said he was going to mommy". the two of us stood there dumbfounded for a split second...each of us thought the other had him...each of us not really expecting he went anywhere...
with him not in sight, we started racing around the snack shop, i ran outside into the pouring rain, we searched the checkout area, we started in opposite directions to scan the store...
any mom who has ever not known where their child was for any amount of time knows the feeling!!! i couldn't breathe!!! it felt like my heart had stopped!! i was so scared...
we were lucky and found him within a couple of minutes. never was i so happy (to see him) and mad (for his leaving) all in the same second!
here's to hoping my fear, anger, and sadness was conveyed well to him in at least one of the MANY convos (or spankings) that we had about his decision tonight!!!

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