today started as an off day! aiden cried EARLY!! normally, i would quickly grab him up out of bed quickly as to not wake owen or daddy, but today sleepyness won - i stayed in bed! finally after atleast an hour of aiden crying for a moment then not for several, my half awake brain came up with a great idea. this should be a lesson for me to never think on half a brain! i decided i was going to "save" owen from the cries so we all could continue to sleep until aiden was supposed to eat. i thought this as if i had actually slept in the last hour and was doing this heroic thing! well in i flew to the boys room and swooped my 'big boy' up into my arms. within a minute we were back into bed trying to snuggle into daddy for warmth. what was it that made me believe this plan would work? what was it that made me think we would suddenly all be able to sleep? within seconds, owen was popping his head up looking around the room..."shh, it's still time for night night" i told him. it didn't even seem like a minute passed before daddy had to get up...owen's curiosity grew! his eyes followed his daddy around the room as he made way to the bathroom, and then back around the room as he headed towards...no, where was he going? didn't he know of my unspoken plans? didn't he know we were supposed to sleep some more? my brain worked enough to know that if he headed out of the room, owen was surely not going to be far behind him. disappointment filled the spot where desire to sleep once lurked. sure enough, owen bounced out of bed and slid down the vacant side. he was no longer trapped and he knew it!! i must point out, that joe leaving -it was a gift! atleast in his eyes. joe is not often able to help out on those mornings i just need a couple more minutes, as he is often at work or getting ready for school. in his mind, i'm sure, he was helping out! well, the early rise seemed as though it would affect everyones attitude for the day! owen cried INSTANTLY over EVERYTHING, aiden just was having a fussy day, joe walked around frustrated that everyone was crying, and i acted as i always act when i dont get enough sleep -pouting, quick to be frustrated, wanting to take a "day off"! would this day be doomed, all before 8am? we went about our normal sunday routine -church is in afternoon so this gives us marlins a pretty relaxed time, which is rarely the case. as i walked thru the dining room, the mood quickly changed! owen, who seemed as though would have the worse day of all of us, was playing with such a huge smile on his face! (mind you, playing in the baby's bouncy seat) was it possible that he had forgotten what a terrible morning we had? amazing! we often hold onto emotions without even knowing it. while i wanted to remain sleepy and angry all day, for no apparent reason at all, my two year old reminded me that i needed to get an attitude check!
LORD, I PRAY THAT YOU WOULD CONTINUE TO TEACH ME! I PRAY THAT WE ALL
WOULD HAVE HEARTS OF TWO YEAR OLDS THAT ARE QUICK TO LEAVE ANGER AND QUICK TO
FIND CONTENTMENT IN YOU!